Thursday, October 2, 2014

Nothing makes me hate writing more than a writing class!

Rawr. I have been plugging away with my classes and I am starting to loathe my Composition class. My professor is okay. She was helpful when I was freaking out over learning how to navigate the shitty online interface of the college website and online book. I've been doing well on my weekly posts except for the most recent post. She gave me a freaking zero because I used the word "you" in my essay. "You cannot use the word you in your college writing." Okay I get that but giving me a zero? Fortunately she is giving me the opportunity to fix my essay and resubmit it for another grade. Fair enough. I think I'd rather have just gotten a C on it than have to revisit the shitty story and rewrite my shitty essay post. Blah.

I pretty much have to get all A's to be accepted into the nursing school I'm hoping to get into. It's a lot of pressure but mostly, it's really fun! I am LOVING my Anatomy and Physiology class. Sure it's a lot of studying and memorization, but I find it fascinating so it feels easy. Taking these classes is really reminding me that I chose my major well. My English class is a bore and so tedious.  It's the last one of its kind though in my prerequisites and I will be thrilled when it's over. Is it over yet? I fortunately did well on my "big" essay two weeks ago, and I'm actually shocked. I got 90%. I had the flu and I squeaked it out the day before it was due. I was so sick and miserable and my brain wouldn't focus so I took an Adderall and wheeeeeeeeee! The words exploded out of me. :D

Other than school, life is good. Kim is absolutely soaring in Jr. High. Kennen is...well he's doing well socially. His grades are atrocious! He's so smart but somehow has decided that due dates for classwork don't apply to him. I've been in communication with the school and have had RTI's in place to give him extra support for "ADHD". We tried medication, and while it did help him get his work done, the medication made him feel sick and he started crying all the time in class. He's always been a sensitive kid anyway, but the crying was out of control and it was affecting any chance he had of making friends. I stopped giving him medication a few years ago and the crying immediately got better. Sure his grades slipped but he was happy again. Now he's a huge 4th grader (5' tall. 103 lbs). He loves football, he has a few friends, he has a good heart, he's extremely bright. He might work on homework slow as molasses, but he understands all concepts without having me explain it to him. He's a great kid.

Okay I feel better after writing this post. I don't hate all writing...I just hate my composition class. Only 9 more weeks. I can do anything for 9 weeks.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

queen of procrastination

Wow...this blog is pretty dusty. It's definitely neglected and I totally blame a virus on my shitty laptop and also facebook. Why take the time to punch out a long blog on my little iphone screen when I can interact with people on facebook? Every time I booted up my laptop, I wanted to throw it though the wall because it's so slow and glitchy. I basically put it in a drawer for two years and survived with just my phone and ipad for everything.

This fall I went back to college. I never graduated in my twenties because oops I got pregnant and wanted to be a stay at home Mom. This surprise blessing I speak of is 12 years old now and in 7th grade. We were sitting at the table doing homework together and she asked me, "Mommy why are you going to college now? Why didnt you graduate when Daddy did?"  Uhhhhmmmmmm, well I uh. Ahem. The real answer is that i got pregnant in college with her, but she still hasn't figured out that I was a pregnant bride and I'd like to keep it that way. My answer was still true...that I wanted to focus on being a Mom, but I didn't go into the details that I was obsessed with my new baby and was so gobsmacked that I made raising my babies my only goal.

Well, I've done it. I am so happy that I raised my babies...but they aren't babies anymore. Last year when the kids were in school, I spent way too much time waiting for them to come home. As summer was ending this year, I felt a heavy weight that they were all going to be in school in a few weeks and I was going to be alone with no idea what to do with myself. I was talking to a friend and she said that she was looking into going back to get her degree. Then it hit me that this was exactly what I needed to do and this was exactly the perfect time to do it.

I want to be a nurse. I have a few prerequisites to complete before I can apply for nursing school, so I am working on that now. One class is compositionzzzzzzzzzzzzz, and the other is Human Anatomy and Physiology. I know it's only 7 credit hours and I could try and I could cram in another class. I must get A's though...like absolutely must get A's to have a chance of acceptance into nursing school. I would rather go slow and take it easy over the next two semesters and have a flawless application, than rush to apply and risk ruining up my grades because I'm overwhelmed. I do still have 3 needy people...sports schedules, tutoring, concerts, etc and so far two classes is just enough for me to not feel like I'm drowning.

Whoa long tangent...I mean to just say that I needed to fix my laptop so i could participate in my online class and submit my papers. One day I fired up the beast, and with the help of a 13 year old boy on youtube, my laptop is now virus free. Yes seriously. I love the internet.

I'm actually supposed to be writing my personal narrative but because I'm a procrastinator, I came to check on the old blog instead. I was about to start freewriting for my paper about my summer vacation (hey all my kids are writing their personal narratives about summer vacation...I'm sure my composition professor will love the 35 year old version!). For our trip, I went with the huz and the kids back 'home' to Arizona and we got stuck there for an extra 10 days. It was the best series of unfortunate events because I got a chance to really slow down and enjoy beautiful magical Arizona. I miss "home" and all of my family so much that it hurts. Jeff and I have talked a lot about it and it's not realistic right now. I will settle for buying an acre of land in Northern AZ by my Moms cabin so that I know someday we will go back.

Whew okay that's all I've got. Gotta write my paper now. :D